Where’s my baby girl gone to? 

 You’re 2 years old today, or 730days old to be more exact and subhan’Allah, watching you grow is everything. I look you at and I saw my past, present and future. It seems like only yesterday I woke your daddy in the middle of the night to rush me to the hospital. Alhamdulilah, it was only 20mins of strong labor and masyaAllah I had you in my arms after one strong push. You weren’t the healthiest baby, but Alhamdulilah as you grow, ur health picks up and look at you now! You weigh a healthy twenty kilo and eating is your passion i have to say. You enjoy eating and LOVE LOVE LOVE your fruits and vegs. We have to hide away those tomatoes, blueberries, bananas and carrots before its all gone 😅

You enjoy playing dress up and my make up kit is your favourite toy. You love to snatch whatever in your Brother possessed and that cry when your Brother doesn’t want to give it.😏 call me a saddist but I enjoy seeing you guys in argument cos moments like that will fade away as you guys grow.  You not much of an outdoor person but I enjoy seeing you running across the field and to come back seconds later and asked to be carried “Hug Hug Hug”. You pretty much scared of everything “Taqoot”, and particularly ants. You hate your strollers, and prefer walking around the mall like a big Sister. But that doesn’t last long and we ended up carrying you around. Dang.

I see that beautiful smile on your face and  knowing in that moment the pride of being a parent. No matter how old your are, you will always be my baby girl. I am so proud of you and I will love you with all I am for all eternity.

Love you,


Where’s my baby girl gone to? 


Hello 2016!

MasyaAllah, glory to Allah. 2015 has gone by in a breezee. Okay, I cannot say it’s that easy kinda breeze- I mean, what’s life without up and downs,eh?

But Alhamdulilah its been a year. My dear Luth has made tremendous changes over the year and with the arrival of baby Aura, he seems so big and independent now. Qeisya is hitting her 2year old mark soon and now starting to show what typically two year olds capable of doing. U know what I mean – that terrible two stage, gawd! And yes, my dear Aura – my new love and I called her my sleeping beauty cos she literally sleeps 23hours a day and wake up in between only for feeds. Alhamdulilah, yes she’s that easy to manage.

2015 has been a year for us as we welcome the new arrival of the family in the later part of the year and got us the whole year preparing for this little one. Alhamdulilah we had our kitchen done (like finally!) and we roped in a helper to help us with the daily chores. She’s been a great help and support for the family, All praise to Allah.

2016 will be slightly different. So here’s the plan : Luth will be attending a full day therapy at the EIPIC center nearby my place and we’re hoping to get a placement in the nearby childcare for Qeisya. Yes, due to health issue we withdraw her from the infant care so now that she’s much bigger we’re hoping that her body is of better health to be in the day care, inshaAllah. As for Luth, the placement won’t be immediate (we have to wait atleast 6 months for it which seems to be forever) so he’ll stay home and rot for now. Reason why he doesn’t continue his stay at his current daycare is because : 1) Journey. I can’t possible have him attending childcare in the morning and rushed back to Woodlands for his therapy. 2) Full day therapy. Not sure if they have a full day therapy sessions but Im hoping for the longest sessions they able to provide. The longer is, the better it ll be. I feel he needs an intensive therapy that works on his self help skill, social and play wise. I’ll leave it to them – the experts. 😏 well, that’s the plan for the kids. Dah dah dah.. I can go on nonstop about it. About myself.. Hmmm.. That’s what we call resolution eh?

To be honest, I don’t prepare any resolutions. Infact, I don’t even thought about it. Just because it’s the new year therefore I have to change my lifestyle, mindset and all to become a totally “new person”? Changes can take place anytime. As Long as we’re mentally ready for it, why not? It doesn’t have to wait for the strike of 12 right? Cos it’s all about making things happen rather than just listing down fanciful wishes that go down the drain in a couple of months or so. Get what I mean? All my past year resolutions fades off and vanish by March so I don’t see any point of me thinking of what to change/improve for 2016. Well of cos, it’s best to have life goals but…resolutions? Nah not necessary. *in my opinion*

But hey, since majority out there have their resolutions all prepared, I’m going to get myself inspired and see what are the changes I can make to have a better me. Prolly a healthier lifestyle? We’ll see. 😏

Hello, 2016.


On new year eve.

Okay, it’s new year eve.

Here I am – browsing thrue my Insta and liking almost every picture I slide through. Why do I even liked that picture of her husband ? Nvm. 

Just done feeding Aura and Luth is finally asleep. Thou Luth is able to sleep on his own now, I will still stay up and ensure that he’s comfortably asleep before I doze off. At times, I find myself patting him (which I should stop doing so, eiks!) heck, he’s still my baby boy. 

Anyway time check : it’s 11.50pm. Ten more minutes before the clock strikes 12. I’ll prolly just wait and continue stalking people in insta. 

Eh, it’s already 12! Happy New Year!!! Fine, hubby asleep. Kiddos tugged in bed and what now?

Okay, lights off. 

On new year eve.

Ayu Kitchenette : Paprik Squid

I was browsing through my Facebook feed last night and came across various recipes for squids. They all look very appetising, prolly cos I was hungry at that point of time and told myself that I need some squids for lunch soon! Haha and lucky me, all the ingredients required were in the fridge so I’m all set for it this morning.

I must say it turn out pretty and it’s so much simpler that I expected. Hehe, also because I make some shortcuts here and there. Oh and I think it will definitely be prettier if there’s blossom of califlower in it. But anyway, lunch is ready and I can’t wait for my rice to cook for me to have my squid craving fix! 

What’s for lunch? 

Recipe taken from Facebook Page.                       (in Malay)  


Ayu Kitchenette : Paprik Squid

Ayu Kitchenette : Assam Pedas Ikan 

Today I gets alittle adventurous and decided to cook something I’ve never thought I would try – Assam Pedas ikan tongkol 😍

Reason why I’m saying that is because all these while I’m too pampered by momsie. And I always think she’s a great cook, so I dare not “challenge” her with my cooking! Now that she’s no longer staying with us, so why nots? 

And of cos, to go along with it we have Mr Cabbage with slices of Mrs Carrots. Okay, time to eat! 


Ayu Kitchenette : Assam Pedas Ikan 


It’s been about a year since my last post and dang, where have I been? Tick tick tick. Anyway, here’s a quick update on what we been up to for the past 12 months. Ready? 

Luth in new school

 Alhamdulilah, Little Man is now comfortably settled in his new school, Brighton Montessori. In fact it only takes him a week to adapt to the new environment and the whole childcare setting. Of cos as parents, you worried about the unnecessary : Is my child able to enjoy school? Will he able to mix around and follow the fast pace environment? Will he wail for me from the time I dropped him till I fetched him at 6? Will the Teachers able to understand his needs and unpredictable tantrums? We fortunate enough to have Teacher Doreen as his teacher. One who is sooo calm in any given situation and never fail to celebrate Luth’s every achievement; be it small or big. Being a teacher myself, I know how tough it is to fulfil the children’s needs and to get them occupied for the next 10hours in school. And it’s simply amazing to see how much Luth enjoys being with her as she always find ways to keep him engaged and occupied him in all sort of creative ways. It’s been 10months now, and I’ve witnessed a vast improvement in Luth. All thanks to his teacher, Teacher Doreen. (Okay, I ll stop here. It’s getting too emotional, sobsob) 

Qeisya, the SAHM (stay at home Makcik) 

Due to health and allergy issue, we decided to withdraw her from infant care and is now officially a stay-at-home-makcik. I think it’s best she stays home as for now. As what Mom always nagged “Budak tu kecik lagi nak pergi skola Ayu. Kan da sakit” Translation : “That kid is too young for school Ayu. See, now she’s sick” 

Okay fine, she win. Now that I’m on leave already, she’s my morning nightmare.

New house, eh?   
Not us.

It’s Mom and dad. They finally got a house few blocks away from ours and moved in some time in mid May. It’s just a walking distance, so it’s easier for us to pop by as and when we’re free. Hahahaa which we had almost every weekend. Annoying eh? 

Preggie again!   And yes, baby 3 is coming really soon! I’m currently 34 weeks pregnant and InsyaAllah due on 7th November. I can’t wait for the kiddos to meet their baby sister. 

A helper  

With the new addition coming this November, we have finally decide to get a helper to assist around the house and most importantly to take care of Qeisya and Baby3 when we’re out to work. Alhamdulilah, she’s been a great help and we’re thankful to have her during this crucial time when I often falling sick and I’m always tired. We got ourselves a good one and we consider ourselves lucky in that sense. I’m not putting my expectations too high. As long as things are in place and kids are well taken care of, I’m blessed. Other than that, I leave it to God to decide. 

Alright, guess that’s all for this time around. Now that I’m on my leave, I will try to squeeze some time to update this blog as and when. 
Till den, ❤️


Sick BabyGirl

My baby girl is sick again.

I feel bad for screwing the work schedule again and again. Plus, it’s not even my permanent deployment and yet I’ve used up my child care leave for as many as I know.

But what can I do..? Qeish only prefer me and knowing how difficult she will be, I wouldn’t want to trouble anyone else.

I’m sure they will bring up this matter somehow. We’ll just wait and hope it’ll never happen 😫

Sick BabyGirl